a novel in confessions which brings me to you

finally the day to meet , however there's buts to it .
time ticking away .. although having to be close together . something is still missing . running thoughts but i still think that i had mentioned what i can . less talking . less comfy and touching words . less common topic . less decisions to be considered .
a word to it - daze . you mentioned no one is perfect , and you have been putting in effort and it requires more time . situation now is less meet ups . less time . less conversations . i am not superwoman who is able to handle all circumstances without fail . i do breakdown and hide in a tiny corner . it always hard on me when its time to say goodbye . i need someone to rely and assure me again and again . treat me as a kid . being pamper . love . play . relax . i hate quiet scenes with no one to talk to . every one with different needs . if you choose to runaway , no barrier stopping you .

CROSSROADS - i am starting to like bar operations . cocktails , mocktails , beer , juices , coffee , softdrinks , champagnes , wines .
covered with bruises . clumsy me . knocking onto every particular objects .
oh ya , where's my massage ? tiring . but we must bear with it . getting to know more each day . and not forgetting to thank those chefs and stewarding uncles who help in carrying those heavy crates of glasses and bottles at times . looking forward to RETAIL . something's new .

had little talk with mummy . somehow i felt better . maybe it time to move on .
1st - maybe
2nd - must
3rd - fated
so which to choose ?

i clear my boxes today and know what . ta dah , all my novels ! =) yeahs . its time for more .. i need more spare cash for them . and i craves for the cadbury popping candy chocs . CHOCOLATES .

i dotes on you.
4:55 pm

Y Thursday, 10 July 2008

shall not mention about attachment to crossroads just yet . something MORE IMPORTANT !!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY you always never fails to make me smile . little stuffs . its touches deep down into my heart . your effort , time , love , care and naming the whole straight list down . its more than just words . =) awaits SUNDAY !! surprises again . yippee . counting down , 3 more days to go . make me sounds like kid who dont have to bother on anything , nothing in particular , with no worries . dar , i will update a post on my blog about YOU . i promise . i have so much to mention . hahas .
i will updates more on the happenings for this whole week when i have more spare time . fall flat on bed every day after work . tiring . and its time to gossip with the girls soon .
- its more than just love -

i dotes on you.
2:31 am

Y Wednesday, 2 July 2008

3 days over , and it also means orientation over =( and the start of my long hours in crossroads cafe . let's hope i will be able to endure and bring the right attitude to work . *keeping my fingers crossed* call it bad news or rather good , i will be starting work from 5pm to 1am on friday . heard that it will be more happening during the night . i am prepared for aching legs , all thanks to the heels that we have to wear and the much more better looking new uniform . BUT i believe i can do it , just need time to adapt .
quote for today ! what's come from my heart will go to your heart =)
was told with regards to the addition of another 'only' . dar , i will love to go shopping with you . and you seems to know what i prefers . and no more ah pek looking colours my dear . lol . promise me , dont bother about what others gossip about your duties . do it well and good . people will know and be able to see . you can do it !
' sunday ' also evelyn birthday ! how should we celebrate . i will be working on that day so i will keep the girls informed again .
i want to go to the expo book sales !!! piles and piles of books to choose from . i will need more cash to spare . i believe i am able to spend all my money only for books . opps . remind of mum's nags . hehs .
- strawberries -

i dotes on you.
10:31 pm